APRIL 2004
26/04/2004 - Simon back in action!
Weather: Sunny
Lets get a couple of things straight shall we? I really am only doing this as a trial thing. Last time this stupid diary thing made people see me in the wrong light. I'm a very private person usually so I can't believe I'm doing this thing again. But I'm bored, so here we go again.
My boyfriend woke me up today quite early. He had to go to work and I couldn't get back to sleep. It's a Monday today so the plan is, take my mum down to the health centre, look around and possible buy a lighter Duvet given the time of year we have now entered.
What have I been upto? Soon after I decided to quit the diary thing, I cleared out all the junk in my room, redecorated it a warm yellow, added a metallic effect paint (United Colors of Benetton) and rearranged my furniture, so my room has had a makeover. Then came Christmas which is where I got rather ill and was in absolute agony. Christmas itself was actually rather boring. Then I went through a bad patch. I was unknowingly making friends with allies of old foes, I was stop searched by the police, then it was my birthday, then my biggest foe broke in the night before mothers day and stole all my mum's money. Then, I started entering my 2nd relationship. Rocky road ahead? Well, it's friggin obvious innit? OF COURSE!!*
Well, this is why I want more friends, I know it's not his fault but my Boyfriend hardly seems to be around. It would be nice to have more friends to fill the social gap, especially since he prefers to stay in rather than go out, which makes me feel old and bothers me because it's like going back into the social anxiety disorder symptom of avoiding going out, but I'm getting over that. Hence I want to get out more. I mean, I'm only 19 for heavens sake! I should be going out enjoying myself!
Longest entry on record? Maybe, but this thing did go AWOL for about 5 months...
Simon
*Would love to be proved wrong!
27/04/2004 - Boring
Weather: Cloudy/Sunny
I'm bored, and bored.com makes me even more bored. Looks like I'm seeing my Boyfriend tomorrow, he's bought a new car and he sounds very happy about it, then again, it does sound rather nice so I'm not surprised! I'm not happy with the snails pace Chapter Zero of my Future Plans are going. I'm trying to save as much money as possible, but it's still not enough. Then again, maybe I should enjoy the peace and quiet while I still can. The horrible parts of my life have died down now, so I should enjoy the long awaited calm whilst I wait for my savings to grow I guess. Probably why this website exists, cos I'm bored and have nothing better to do!
All the above is how the mornings go. Will tomorrow be better? Well, aren't I being overly optimistic!?
Simon
28/04/2004 - Boy + World
Weather: Rain
Yes siree. This country is not for me. Acceptance is something I will never find, my own kind don't even exist. The weather's shit, I can't make decisions, the clothes on offer in shops are either boring or depressing or both. I've also sropped smoking, because smoking is associated with cannabis, if you smoke ciggarettes, then ya must smoke cannabis too apparently. And I don't like that sorta thing. I want my past to remain in the past.
Don't piss me off.
Simon
29/04/2004 - The worlds worst boyfriend
Weather: Rain
Ya know, relationships really run me down, I was doing alright until I started the blog. I must be the worlds worst boyfriend otherwise I wouldn't be getting hurt and hurting people would I? That is why I keep my distance from people, because I'll only huirt them, then I will get hurt. I don't like the internet, chatting to people online is very damaging. Don't do it. So far, this trial is goie very badly, so I'm not sure if I will create a blog for May.
Simon
30/04/2004 - Love Possibly
Weather: Rain
I've been through a fair bit this month. I've been to London twice, I went to the London Lesnian and Gay Film Festival with Dean, went back to London to see Tomo, met up with Gemma at home and we caught up on what we've been upto and got myself a Boyfriend. True, my ego has been battered a bit true, but I can recover from that, and I seem to be. My savings towards driving lessons should be getting more of a boost, I've been asked to repair a PC, and it looks as if I maybe getting paid if I'm successful :o).May
So that's April
Simon
