NOVEMBER 2004

01/11/2004 - Monday

Weather: Cloudy

So here we are at the beginning of another week and another Month. ITV3 has launched today and I also tried out Boswells in Yate for the first time and it ain’t bad... Yate seems to be improving a little bit however my thoughts on Yate in general will always be the same. People seem to think it’s weird that I’m blonde but they shall just have to get used to it Like I will. Won’t be forever! I also bought myself a new mousemat and 2005 diary don’t ya know? Everything seems to be ok, just tired still.

Simon

02/11/2004 - Tuesday

Weather: Drizzle

Just been kinda depressed today, really sick of the state of my room. It used to be kinda cosy... and now the living room is in a state too. I’m hoping to sort out my room tomorrow properly and I’ve sent Gary his Birthday package but it got kinda wet... I guess I’m not entirely happy with my life... maybe I’m just adapting to the changes?

Simon

03/11/2004 - Wednesday

Weather: Cloudy/Rain

GRRR! BLOODY CHRISTMAS! GETTING ON ME TIT’S ALREADY!! I gotta buy gifts and probably contribute to the big fat annual food shop 4 hour endurance run at Sainsbury’s Emerson’s Green but I’ve decided to do most my crimbo shopping online this year to exercise my right as a geek. And I do believe it is the 3rd of November is it not? The only reason why I need to financially contribute to the calorie supernova is because I’ve noticed my mum struggling financially lately... and it’s not good... Even Demon are still charging me so I shall have to get in contact with them very soon. At least my room is tidier and my waist is slimmer! Oh and Nick is coming round with booze tomorrow night.

Simon

04/11/2004 - Thursday

Weather: Sunny

Nah not a lot done today. Just did some washing and work on the Clerical Layercake Target. I was going to have Nick around tonight but he couldn’t make it as he isn’t feeling to good. A friend of his passed his driving test today which is great... and I really hope that will be me one day...

Simon

05/11/2004 - Bonfire Night

Weather: Light Cloud

I remember when I was with Paul and it was sort of a love Triangle... there was this other guy who was convinced he was the coolest guy on earth and he thought he was gorgeous. I knew him before I went into a relationship with Paul he wanted to meet me, and he still did afterwards and he kept interfering and wanted me and Paul to go down to see him during the summer and have a threesome... I wasn’t interested and thankfully, Paul dumped me. Then this guy wanted to have sex with me but I still wasn’t interested and now he’s out of the picture too. I guess this means I’m going through changes. I have a new bunch of friends and there all great. I’m much happier and am moving on all the time now and progressing... but one thing remains, I still have an Anxiety Disorder and I’m trying to soldier on regardless. But it’s not working and deep down I know that. Anyway, My mum has been a chatterbox and I got a couple of my Christmas presnts to give to 2 people. If your going out tonight to any bonfires or firework displays or your having your own, be careful and enjoy yourself! Remember Kids, Follow the Firework code!

Simon

07/11/2004 - Sunday

Weather: Cloudy

Sorry about missing an entry for yesterday, I forgot to add one. Yesterday my mum’s friend was here for the day, and she did the cooking for a change and she went shopping and exhausted both me and my mum so I was too tired to write an entry anyway. Otherwise, not much has happened this weekend which is the way I like it because I need a quiet weekend to recharge my batteries! Gary’s Birthday is soon and my compuet has been on the blink too, I need a new motherboard which I have ordered so hopefully it’s on it’s way soon!

Simon

08/11/2004 - Monday

Weather: Cloudy/Rain

Ya know, my mum’s carers really are a bit easily fooled... right now there talking about some psychic who can take people’s pain then she “need� a vodka/tequila shot... just sounds like some drinking game to me! (Says he who has an interest in astrology). Damn, those last bits rhyme! Anyway, what have I done today? Well I bought some new lamps, ordered a CD shelf and have bought a card for someone. I’ve also been doing work on Pro Ro and have decided to contact Royal London by post as I can’t get through to them by phone (They answer the phone, but they just don’t seem to understand...) Anyway, that was my day. Too many rhymes!

Simon

10/11/2004 - Wednesday

Weather: Cloudy

My computer has broken down & I’m not sure when it will work again. My mum is in debt and is incapable of control, the world is at war and I can’t see an end to these dark times. Although things aren’t nearly as bad as they once were, I have been around for nearly 20 years, 14 of which have been plagued with various unpleasentries. Will it end?

Simon

11/11/2004 - Thursday

Weather: Cloudy

Right, today was the day when people in Britain observed a 2 minute silence in honour of those who died at war. May they all rest in peace. Speaking of war, I battled with 2 shelves today which sparked off a delirious search for a screwdriver which I never found! Nick came round last night after spending time in Devon.*

Simon

*The rest is a blur!

12/11/2004 - Friday

Weather: Sunny

This just isn’t my day. Woke up, cup ‘o’ tea, pack of fags (that’d be Breakfast then - ed.), took my mum to the dentist & my lighter wouldn’t work so I bought some matches & got a blistered thumb just cos of a ciggarette. Then my mum’s wheelchair broke down in Superdrug & she had to call out an engineer to fix it there & then in a busy shop which was really embarassing. Finally got home, had a shower & then I was told that my Mobo would arrive today which it didn’t and things were quieter. I found some old photo’s from Chessington & photo’s of my Dad. I think I’ve inherrited his eyes & nose but my mum’s mouth & smile, aswell as her face shape. I also found a bag that Tomo gave me full of stuff he gave to me when I went to London. Such a nice sentimental feeling... London is like home to me.

Simon

13/11/2004 - Gary’s Birthday

Weather: Sunny

Well, today is Gary’s Birthday so Happy Birthday Gary!!! Nick went to Callais and had a nightmare of a time forgetting his passport and being held up by silly people who know no better & my mum’s friend made a long winded appearence & I am exhausted. Lambrini is kinda shit.

Simon

16/11/2004 - Tuesday

Weather: Cloudy

Sorry about the lack of entries, energy has been rather low. Also my computer still ain’t working . I haven’t been doing much lately, just laying in bed watching telly. So, I have reached a bit of a breakthrough with Planet Micro, Mobo on it’s way apparently... Back online soon... I hope!

Simon

17/11/2004 - Wednesday

Weather: Cloudy

My hair is Frizzy! That hair raising news aside, not a lot to report. Still no PC, Nick is coming round later too.

Simon

18/11/2004 - Thursday

Weather: Rain

Not been the greatest day I’ve ever had, I started the day fully dressed and disorientated. Once I got my barings though, I went looking for a new Motherboard to no joy in PC World. But my Motherboard from Planet Micro could arrive tomorrow...

Simon

21/11/2004 - Sunday

Weather: Cloudy

Ok, Motherboard arrived & installed & not working. Hair gone from Blonde to Pink to Blue and soon Burgandy. I also have a cold and today wasn’t too relaxing. Kinda getting tired or life

Simon

22/11/2004 - Monday

Weather: Sunny/Cloudy

Another week, another Cycle, however, mum is going into Respite tomorrow & I get time to myself. I went to the doctor today and my left eardrum is torn. I dyed my hair burgandy too. I’m on 500mg Amoxicillin for my ear and my cold isn’t too bad. I’m just worried about affording repairs to my system...

Simon

23/11/2004 - Tuesday

Weather: Cloudy

Mum is now in respite & I’m taking my PC in tomorrow to Special Reserve to be fixed. I am dreading the cost of it even though I have no idea how much it will be. I’ve been thinking about relationships. They seem to go wrong for me because I can’t express myself when something is on my mind. That’s because I’m afraid of it being something really silly and not worth worrying about and then looking stupid. Then again, sometimes I go into deep thought and then I forget what it is I was thinking about.

Simon

24/11/2004 - Wednesday

Weather: Sunny

Finally, my PC is in the workshop and is being fixed. Been a while since it’s been into one and I have the receipt which makes for interesting reading... It says: “Work to be carried out: CPU Blown on System (I blame the cock pics on Gaydar, bit too hot - and sometimes too disgusting - for my PC to handle! - ed) - replace Case, Motherboard & RAM supplied by us (Special Reserve). Total Cost: £180.96�. ONE HUNDRED & EIGHTY POUNDS AND 96 PENCE!!! I can’t afford that!... Pizza & Booze please!

Simon

25/11/2004 - Thursday

Weather: Sunny/Cloudy

I went to see the Bridget Jones sequel today (the edge of reason) and it was quite alright! So... whatelse?... (Sumimasen Minna-san but I can’t add the rest of this entry because it’s too embarassing and don’t expect to find it anywhere cos it’s gonna get burnt! - ed)

29/11/2004 - Monday

Weather: Sunny/Cloudy

Well, I can barely remember last weekend... it was full of booze (It was the weekend of Nick’s Birthday). It was full of booze (I’m surprised there aren’t 4 victims of Liver Failure! - ed) and mad times but it has changed me a fair bit... my self esteem is on the up and looks like I’m going back into therapy (that doesen’t make sense... - ed) and will be a web designer when I grow up. Took Vodka, Tequila, Lager & Wine to make that happen and I won’t be drinking much for a while. Soo... my computer is well again and is coming home to me soon!

Simon

30/11/2004 - Tuesday

Weather: Mostly Cloudy

Yes, 30th of November. Been a bit of an eventful month. I haven’t been online lately cos my system crashed badly and now I’m back and have been recording entries on paper and will fill it all in ready for the next update before the crimbo site comes into effect. Today Nick came round to help me get my PC (and Thank You Very Very Mucho to Nick for helping me with my PC amongst a few other things) and Trish met my Mum. And the two get on fab which I’m really happy about. We went into town twice and chatted quite a lot. So, November’s Summary. Been a lot happening and towards the end of this month, some of my friendships got deeper n deeper. Things were quiet I guess but Planet Micro have P***** me off QUITE A LOT and I have been making vows of teetotality due to a guilty mistake caused by excessive alcohol which hurts me a lot... I ‘ll drink at Crimbo and on Birthdays.

Here Comes the Final Month of 2004...

Simon