MAY 2005
01/05/2005 – Mayday
Weather: Sunny
Mayday indeed. Last night was really good, me n Gemma went to Chipping Sodbury and ha a night out in what I thought to be the most unlikely place to have fun! We went to a wine bar n drank there and the we went to the Squire which is a pub and had more drink then we got a taxi home and we were still pissed and drinking champagne. The morning after was awful. We were so hung over and I was feeling kinda ill all day long. I had a pub lunch with my mum and that made me feel a bit unwell for some reason… and I was kinda tearful yesterday and I dunno why… maybe it™s just had something to do with everything that happened and me really taking the blame badly.
Simon
02/05/2005 – Bank Holiday Monday
Weather: Cloudy
I™m gonna be booking my theory test very soon. I took a mock theory on Saturday and passed with 34/35! I was so convinced I got a lot of it wrong. But my hazard perception needs work. And when I said I™d book my theory test very soon, I meant it! It takes place on 20/05/2005 at 1PM. Wish me Luck! I also seen Nina in Tesco™s and it was strange but cool. She seems nice but I say that about everyone… I also bought Nick a keyboard. He needs a new keyboard.
Simon
03/05/2005 – Gemma™s 21st Birthday
Weather: Rain
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEMMA!! 21 TODAY!! Hope ya having a great day even though it™s raining! Today I was woken up by sinus pressure pain shooting up my face and it was horrible and nasty, very very painful. Anyway, I had a medical for my Income Support and realised I forgot to mention the fact that I™m on the waiting list to see an ENT specialist about my ears! I really should have but it went ok, he just asked me a few questions about how I manage to do things and I will find out if I am mentally fit enough to work in there opinion. And thank you Nick for being kind enough to take me there! Anyway, I shall be having a beer in Gemma™s Honour on her 21st Birthday, CHEERS!
Simon
05/05/2005 – General Election Day
Weather: Sunny
Today is the big day politically. Today is the day that Britain is voting for who they want to be in the next parliament! I have voted for the Liberal Democrats because I believe that they are the only party who have people™s interests at heart and believe that only they can actually offer anything different from Labour and the Conservatives. I haven™t been doing a helluva lot today, just been studying some driving theory. I™ve also been working on a special portfolio of Simon™s Website over the past 2 years nearly as July 7th will by my websites 2nd anniversary!
Simon
07/05/2005 – Saturday
Weather: Sunny
Gemma had a really awful 21st Birthday I™m sorry to say. She was being abused by her Ex-Boyfriend and she was attacked by him on her 21st Birthday as well as New Years eve so I discovered yesterday. I also helped her yesterday to not answer the phone to her no ex boyfriend which makes me feel good cos I could help her in some way . As for today… it™s been a regular sunny Saturday until I casually went on Gaydar and got a message from Nick™s profile saying “STOP HAVING SEX WITH MARRIED MEN YOU SICKO” So… why does a married man have a Gaydar profile which is for looking for shags?!! LOL and ya know what? I can say whatever I fucking want now!! I added password protection so as to make my life a lil easier. Also I™m not a Gaydar member anymore. Talking to Nick is really dangerous. Ya know something? I have a Secret that could really destroy Patricia… and I am incredibly tempted to blurt it out… I just wanna crush her cos she keeps harassing me…
Simon
09/05/2004 – Monday
Weather: Sunny/Rain
That bitch just doesn™t believe that by playing a part in my harassment and breaking the law by hacking into email accounts and profiles is wrong! She just doesn™t thinks she™s done anything wrong at all! I just wanna destroy in the most grandiose way from slicing her up into vapour and sacrificing her to Voodoo Gods to maiming her then throwing her in a coffin with her son Iain exhumed and thrown in her coffin with her then throwing her down a 6ft hole in the ground and adding a layer of cement so she can™t escape. Apart from that I™ve been on the phone all morning trying to get things sorted. I™ve confirmed a couple of appointments, got my driving lessons going again and unfortunately, I no longer have graham as my instructor because he has a suspected brain tumour and is in hospital. So from Wednesday I will be back on the road regularly, learning to drive. I™ve also been doing some Hazard Perception Training for the big day next week… It™s a lot to take in! I™ve also made an appointment for next month to see an ENT specialist and I™ve handed in my completed Job application for Boswells Caf©. So I™ve been kinda busy n enjoying some nice Chocolates I received from someone special.
Simon
10/05/2005 – Tuesday
Weather: Sunny
My mum and I had a trip to HSBC today and I really cannot believe that they gave my mum a current account with a £200 over draught facility! I also had my Occupational Therapist pay a visit here today and she is going to arrange some vocational things and help me achieve my goals n try and arrange some kid of agreement thing to get the carers off my back and hopefully liberate me of my carer role completely!.. well eventually but it™s begun. I also found a really old letter sent to my mum and dad from before I was born… it was from a friend of my parents who my parents let stay with them when they were in London and she repaid them by letting her stay for a few weeks in Sri Lanka which is where she lived. However according to my mum, a war broke out there and she never got to go there in the end… But I wonder what that war in Sri Lanka was… It™s strangely played with my emotions since I read it… a kind of mysterious nostalgia… who was this Katie & Alma?
Simon
11/05/2005 – Wednesday
Weather: Sunny
I have been 20 years old for the last 2 months now, well done me! Anyway today I will be having my first driving lesson since my pressure implosion a while back and I™m happy that I™m getting things moving again. If ya wanna see how it went take a look at Project Ronin (in the Light Zone), click on Chapter 1, then look for the “Special Journal: Open Road” button beneath the corresponding Fire Target. I haven™t done a helluva lot today so far, just been thinking about Planet Tokyo and that letter from 25 years ago sent from Sri Lanka and then it hit me, wasn™t Sri Lanka hit by the Tsunami? Are they ok? Speaking of the Tsunami, there will be a memorial service held at St Paul™s Cathedral and 300,000 petals will fall; 1 petal for each life lost. Nichola is really looking forward to her Birthday on Saturday and I will have to let Gemma know the arrangements and see if she can still make it. Anyway, I™m gonna do some driving study now.
Simon
13/05/2005 – Friday
Weather: Cloudy/Sunny
I can™t figure out why the Idea of running away feels so good… I have my apprehensions about meeting someone that Irish bitch brought over because it thinks that me and this guy have things in common but I™m afraid we don™t. I very much doubt he likes me and he probably just wants to injure me or something… I™m not even sure this guy is for real… anyway, yes, today is Friday the 13th which is said to be unlucky for some though the most bad luck I™ve had is hearing about him, hearing about another enemy of mine doing really well though it just makes me feel odd and my lighter not working and clothes falling off the washing line. I also seen Gemma today and we were doing mock Hazard perception tests and we were talking about Car Insurance and Gemma was kind enough to give me a quote! It™s someone special™s birthday tomorrow…
Simon
15/05/2005 – Sunday
Weather: Sunny
Well I have to say that I had a really good time last night at Nichola™s Birthday party. She is such a lovely girl ya know. Gemma came along too and she had a great night out and we made up for her shitty 21st which is what I wanted for her really. She had her emotional moments but she just feels like I™m her only friend who will care about her right now… I™m happy to be there for her but I™m surprised her other friends don™t seem to care as much. But Nichola had a really good time last night and that is excellent! We were dancing, drinking, twirling, whirling, I was getting compliments and told that I look like someone from the Red Hot Chilli Peppers but I really can™t see the resemblance between me and any of there members. Nick took us home and Chris was there too, a good time was had by all and I was sorry to see it end to be honest!
Simon
16/05/2005 – Monday
Weather: Sunny/Rain
Seems to me Patricia has taken her petulant little war to a whole new level and had a punch up with Nick… he™s gone down to Devon today to sell his caravan there in what sounds like a desperate attempt to get Trish back to Ireland in order to get her away from him and the abuse he™s been getting from her… I really do feel as if she has become a monster now and that she may never achieve the happiness she longs for because she just won™t take the steps to achieve it. I just don™t like her because she is a nasty person and I seriously have no space or time for people like that! I hope Nichola is ok… I know she seriously doesn™t like her mother right now and maybe all our lives (except for Patricia™s) will become calmer and maybe the saga will begin to end… I™m just sorry that it™s come to this. I™m beginning to believe I haven™t caused this directly as I have no recollection of a desire to destroy ANYBODIES lives… EVER! Maybe I have through anger and bitterness but I don™t believe I have taken any action to make it happen.
Simon
17/05/2005 – Tuesday
Weather: Sunny/Cloudy
I have been subjected to the most incredibly surreal day in my entire 20 year life. It started when I woke up… to a power cut. So I played on my Nintendo DS for 30 minutes or so then Power returned. I then watched Trisha Goddard on Channel 5 and it started with a suspected Love Triangle which didn™t progress to the stage my love triangle had, then the subject changed to the Paranormal with Ghosts haunting some woman house then a guy who™s son apparently seen dead people long before the 6th sense came about. I then got some shopping done and it took me 2 hours because I couldn™t think about anything other than driving. I made the decision to learn in an Automatic and as I was on the phone to BSM, my worse fears had been confirmed… Patricia with some guy I have never seen before in my life turned up and kept harassing me and wouldn™t leave me alone for 2 hours… I had to call the police and Nichola helped me handle it by talking about cars & Alton Towers. Nick sold his Caravan in Devon for £8000 and I found £1. I have just been feeling incredibly numb all day and not at all good about myself. I have no Idea what those trespassers wanted…
THESE EVENTS MUST NEVER BE SPOKEN OF EVER AGAIN!
However, I would just like to say a little something to Gemma… I only just remembered that she would like me to be the Godfather to her children one day… when she has Children… I would just like to say… that would be such a great honour! So Yes, I would love to be the Godfather to you Children one day Gemma!
Simon
18/05/2005 – Wednesday
Weather: Cloudy
Yeah, not a lot done today though the Police are endeavouring to get here now. Nick isn™t coming to my theory test so I™m gonna be taking it alone and that is not nice. Anyway, just generally feel bad about everything right now… yeah so I™m going to the Cinema tomorrow and ordering Pizza and having myself a Theory study night… BIG DEAL! I just can™t feel good about myself lately… I know that I am suffering from depression and I just get tearful everyday and just keep crying because I really am failing at stuff! If I get killed on the road then good cos life is always shitty! I either get harassed, slammed, taken advantage of or I just feel like crap for whatever reason. Guess I got Alton Towers to look forward to…
Simon
19/05/2005 – Thursday
Weather: Sunny
I got new shoes! I went out today and went to see Monster in Law. It™s a good film, quite funny though only 1 character made me laugh quite a lot and that was Ruby. She suggested to Charlie (Jennifer Lopez) that if she was going to care for Viola (Jane Fonda) she would need a firearm. Also she has funny quotes like “Ya think the girl™s gonna know about politics? She™s got stars on her nipples!” and “Ya crazy… ok, now ya foaming at the mouth!”. So, I have my theory test tomorrow and I have been revising for it quite hard all day believe it or not and after tomorrow I could end up throwing out the Highway Code! Well… probably not but I won™t need to study for my theory & hazard perception tests anymore. Just for the record, my scores prior to the tests are 34 for the Theory & 63 for the Hazard Perception tests.
Simon
20/05/2005 - Friday
Weather: Sunny/Cloudy/Rain
I am sooo clever!! YAY!! I took my driving theory test today and I passed it!! But you know where to read on that hehe... Anyway, my day has mostly been based on that and it was very nerve wrecking but it was all worth it in the end, thank you to everyone who wished me luck and for everyones congratulations! I got a phone call from one of Bitchzilla™s friends seeking gossip material and I foolishly gave some out. Still, I™ve been warned now and I am going to cautiously answer the phone now. I™m going out with Gemma again on Saturday night to a Chinese resturaunt in Yate just down the road to celebrate but first things first, CHAMPAGNE TIME!!!! WOOOOO HOOOOOO!!!!!
It™s a good day!
Simon
22/05/2005 – Sunday
Weather: Rain/Sunny
So, I™ve passed my driving theory test and have learned a few things about how the roads work and what all the different signs mean… so why don™t I feel proud of myself? I must admit, I™m surprised by my result but it doesn™t feel like I have achieved anything major. But I have been bitten by the education bug. Last night I went out with Gemma to a Chinese restaurant and it we had a nice time. We were chatting about the craziness of Britain™s legal system and the crazy thing™s people do and we are considering taking A Level Psychology. I really feel as if I need to understand why people do what they do in order to match there behaviour and to better understand my own Psychology to perhaps understand myself more… I can be quite analytical and do have a tendency to think outside of the box but learning to drive is very trying… I thing Gemma may end up discovering that for herself… maybe I have become stronger now that I have proven to myself that I can learn after all…
Simon
30/05/2005 – Bank Holiday Monday
Weather: Sunny
HUGE lack there! Sorry! Anyway, I™ve had my OT and a Social Worker onto my carer role and they seem like they wanna help me end it which is so cool! Bitchzilla ain™t been bothering me and I went to Alton Towers and it was amazing! And my mum got her loan and we got new phones which are great and were getting a new TV and Dishwasher tomorrow! I start my new driving lessons in an Auto on June the 9th and I really love my JPop music which is just so cool n nice and makes me happy! And so does Nick… I love Nick!
Simon
31/05/2005 – Tuesday
Weather: Sunny
So that was May, My mum™s new Telly n Dishwasher arrived today and I™ve been working really hard getting everything fitted and running but I got there. The new TV is soo cool! I want a Widescreen TV in my room now… they are just brillian! And the Dishwasher is pretty good too… got that up and running quite easily… Alton Towers was good, just repeated what I did a couple of years ago and went with Nichola, Gemma & Chris. Umm… yeah. Big Brother started a few days ago and I like Makosi & Mary… there cool.
Simon
