JUNE 2005
01/06/2005 – Wednesday
Weather: Rain
I still really miss my dad… and I hate it when people say time is a great healer because like Eric Clapton sang in Tears in Heaven, Time can break you down and have you begging “please!”. It is very true… There were times where me and my father never got on but I remember the times when we did. Every Saturday night me, my mum and my dad would just watch the telly together and my dad would have his pint of John Smiths and it was just very social and happy… my mum would cook something and I would just gabber on about whatever and play about… it was nice. We would watch Noels House Party or Casualty or Bullseye… that was back in the day when Saturday Night TV was worth staying in for. And every Sunday we went to a Pub called the Swan at Nibley. We had our Sunday Lunches there and it was how we spent our Sunday afternoons back then… and I got home and watched the Simpsons on Sky One…I really miss that. And I still really miss my dad… I want my daddy back…
Simon
03/06/2005 – Friday
Weather: Cloudy
Guess what? I have a boyfriend! Me and Nick are… official now! HAHA! So Nick is my 3rd Boyfriend… and were gonna go on a little date one night sometime but I™m only saying this on my journal cos its password protected. It is under wraps still because things need to really settle down and I™m leaving it to Nick to tell everyone because I know what difficulty it would cause right now… but I™m happy! The 1st Big Brother eviction takes place tonight and Craig & Mary are up for eviction… out of the two I have chosen Craig because I just would not miss him! Sam is really boring… nothing there… she™s just a lil tart with really bad hair.
Simon
07/06/2005 – Tuesday
Weather: Sunny
Isn™t the Sunset beautiful? Hello, this is Simon reporting on my life. I had a Social Worker here today just checking up on my carer assessment and letting me know how things are going etc. I have my first driving lesson in an Automatic on Thursday afternoon and have been using Driving Test Success (Im)Practical and that has been driving me mad these past few days… what have I been up to? Got a new Telly n Dishwasher which are both fab and went to Alton Towers and had a great time there with Nichola, Gemma and Chris. Mary was evicted from Big Brother which I was not happy about for 2 reasons… 1: I liked her and 2: I lost a £5 bet cos I bet that Craig would be leaving! And now all 12 Housemates are up for eviction!.. I wonder who will be leaving this week…
Simon
09/06/2005 – Thursday
Weather: Sunny
Automatic cars are brilliant and I could sing my praises for em for a very long time… but I won™t. I just think they have a few advantages over Manuals. I do see a future in driving an Automatic. So anyway, my day has otherwise been somewhat quiet… I miss Nick though. I really just wanna be with him a lot of the time! So tomorrow night is the next Big Brother eviction… I want leasley to go. My experiences of driving had taken a turn for the worse and I did feel really bad about it, but now my confidence has been restored…
Simon
10/06/2005 – Friday
Weather: Sunny
It™s been really hot lately, so summer must have arrived! Also my website is 2 years old and I™ve only not long realised! So I™ve opened up the Flashback thing, hope you all like it. I haven™t been doing a helluva lot today; I haven™t been seeing Nick online at all lately… I™m worried about that… but still, it™s probably because he™s battling with Bitchzilla still. Anyway, I™ve just been suffering in the heat, constantly trying to cool down and thinking about how well my driving lesson went and I think I can finally beat my record of only having an ADI twice and never seeing them again! Not a great record but never mind. Anyway, tonight is the Big Brother Eviction night and I™m pretty sure Lesley will be leaving tonight which is great because she™s a nasty, bullying cow.
Simon
15/06/2005 – Wednesday
Weather: Cloudy/Rain
Why am I not updating my Journal regularly? Because I just cannot be arsed to be honest! So what have I been up to? I had a meeting yesterday with my OT and another OT from Vocational Services who is trying to get me into some kind of study and job I guess… I can™t help but wonder if Project Ronin is being taken over… I need to think of a way to integrate it all. Also I™ve been playing a lot of games online and been winning credits and now I™m just trying to win an iPod. Also been playing on Outrun 2 on my Xbox and as for my Passion for Japan, I haven™t been doing much with that but it™s been a heavy element in a lot of my life. That and sexy looking guys hehe!
Simon
16/06/2005 – Thursday
Weather: Rain
Today isn™t my day. I went to the doctors and must have apologised several times for being 20 minutes late even though it was never my intent! I have just been feeling very strange all day… the weather is humid and sticky and that isn™t helping… I also feel worried because I have a hospital appointment and have no Idea how I am going to get there. It just seems this world is all about Terrorism and it makes me feel sick to be alive. I really am sick n tired of life sometimes… very deplorable!
Simon
18/06/2005 – Saturday
Weather: Sunny
It is just soooo hot! I cannot get comfortable!! I have been feeling kinda ill again today though… I just can™t cope with this heat! Really can™t! Anyway, today Sandra came round and had her usual Saturday of shopping with a small twist; it was the Yate shopping centre family fun day. They had a talent contest and stalls and a barbeque… good weather for it all! Sam was evicted from Big Brother last night and I have to admit, Big Brother really ain™t much like Big Brother 5 last year… I actually really needed BB5 last year as it was my only source of entertainment! So there ya have it, a very hot Saturday! I™ve also been looking at my 2003/4 Journals and have to say… that I™m really happy that I have some great friends now… and I am in a relationship with a wonderful man… so in some ways, my life has it™s good points!
Simon
23/06/2005 – Thursday
Weather: Sunny
It™s been really hot lately and today is no exception however looks like today is the last day of this good weather for a while as it™s set to be raining tomorrow and I have to go out in it! I have also moved on in Project Ronin and I have rid myself of BSM… there gonna send me my money back (£224.57) and I don™t know what to do with it… I™ll probably just let it save up again and maybe switch over to HSBC – let them have it perhaps. I™m also going to be looking for a job next week onwards as I can™t really afford to learn to drive anymore, I™ve lost my money! Also not much progress is being made on the mental health front either. I™ve quite with BSM because my Instructor failed to turn up yesterday and that™s the end of that! I™ve had enough…
Simon
30/06/2005 – Thursday
Weather: Cloudy/Sunny
This isn™t good… my mum came back from Southmead Hospital today and she is not very well… personally, I don™t think she should have been discharged as she just is not well. Nick reckons it™s been 10 months since we started chatting online… it™ll be a year in September… I have also been an Outpatient at Southmead Hospital to see the ENT specialist who did a few tests on me and I found it rather tiring… But that was most of June 2005 for ya.
