JUNE 2004
01/06/2004 - Tuesday
Weather: Cloudy
Oooohhhh.... Ahhhhh... Look at this I tell thee, I say look at this. State of the art innit? Oooh it’s so different! It’s my website, and your right, it did look different yesterday!
This is Simon’s Website Version 2.0, enjoy the change :) Ok, I’m outta sarcastic comments so back to my sheduled whingy moaning nonsense. I’m bored again so maybe I should make another entirely different website which has nothing to do with me? I would do a Yaoi thingy as there isn’t much of it about but that’s cos people keep stealing it from sites and putting it one there own, which is a bit annoying, and my creative juices have frozen. I often wonder what happened to the Simon who enjoys life and was always chatty and happy. Is he dead, or just sleeping inside me?... Yate has drained me quite a bit, and it seems my life is taking me to the South East of england now, as that is where my friends mostly seem to be. So when I think about moving out and flocking the nest, shall I migrate to the East?
Simon
02/06/2004 - Wednesday
Weather: Sunny
What have I been upto? I paid a bill, I made a CD for Gary and put it in the post for him, did some shopping and bought some ciggerates and for the first time in a long time, I was asked for ID! Still has a use then! I’ve also been thinking about the future again. Maybe it’s because I have a pretty good Idea of when Chapter Zero of Project Ronin will end? Possibly...
Simon
03/06/2004 - Thursday
Weather: Cloudy
Broadband certainly has taken away one hassle, which is people complaining that I’m always online and falsely accusing me for a big phone bill, despite using Unmetered. All that was over a year ago and I have had this broadband ever since. I’ve also been thinking about my future yet again. I can’t make it happen any soonder, and my plans do sound exciting but it’s gonna be kinda scary as I’m not sure if I can pull off such a huge plan single handedly.
Simon
04/06/2004 - Friday
Weather: Sunny/Cloudy
I am a boy of Leisure and I will be happy to continue that way for a little while more. Why? Because that’s all I can do for now, play games, watch films & anime, listen to Jpop, go out, spend time with friends and enjoy myself because this s the only point in my life where it will be a ball because once Chapter 0 is complete, I won’t have much time left until I begin my journey to becoming a driver, and it certainly aint gonna stop there baby! Also my ex GP had the nerve to ask my mum how I was doing. My mum though that maybe that was the result of guilt, that he’s trying to be a well wisher... if she’s hit the nail on the head, then he’s even more pathetic than I thought... still, onwards and upwards like I keep saying!
Simon
05/06/2004 - Saturday
Weather: Sunny
Gary sent me FFVIII! And I got it in the post this morning. I have to admint this, he is probably one of the only people I’ve known who has expressed gratitude “the old fashioned way”. I sent him 3 CD’s full of Japanese music and music videos and he sent me that to borrow as a way of saying thanks and I have to say that I think that was very gracious of him! I was also speaking to Ned last night. We were talking about how I’m cahnging. I agree with him, I mean, I can’t see it for myself but I do feel different. I feel something I don’t think I have felt before... myabe it’s some kind of empowerment? He got me thinking about the Revenge that I want to tkae out on some people from my past. Maybe I want that because I feel as if none of what happened in my past is really my fault anymore, and I think that’s some growth of self esteem. Or maybe it’s because I can see better now... looking back at it, it is NOT my fault - Fact! So... maybe my revamp will work for me... all I have to do is look at the facts right?
Simon
08/06/2004 - Tuesday (Happy Birthday to Simon’s Website!)
Weather: Sunny
Sorry about not writing for the past 2 days! My website is also 1 today! There have been some going ons but it doesen’t benefit me much, it’s more to do with my mum! For 5 years, she has been waiting for adaptions to be done to this place to make it easier for her to well, live here to be frank, and it looks as if it may finally be going ahead but I think she is being a bit too hasty... She’s arranging a loan to buy a gas hob & oven which the grant wouldn’t cover, but this is all because the hardest obstacle to get work underway seems to be clearing, and that is, finding temorary acommadation, it would seem it’s been found in a town nearby called Kingswood. So I may not be updatin g this site for a full month bhut there will be a rather large update on my return, as I will take my laptop along with me so I can continue writing in the blog and perhaps get a non contract narrowband internet service on dial up, if it has a phone line! I HOPE SO!!!
Simon
09/06/2004 - Wednesday
Weather: Cloudy
Kind of an annoying day today. Just been getting strange looks all day and it really pisses me off now. I kinda wonder if the people of Yate are aware that there are lands beyond the horizon, and I’m not just talking about the other town in the South West of England! But I’m hoping they don’t know, then the risk is that they won’t go exploring, and the reason why is because if they do, I will feel sorry for poor buggers who encounter them!
Simon
10/06/2004 - Thursday
Weather: Cloudy/Sunny
It’s not been as warm as it has been of late which was nice. I’m still waiting for my PIN to my bank account and I only have access to £5 yet I have more than that but I can’t get at it! It MUST arrive soon because I do have a bill to pay for... Anyway, I downloaded a music video today. So i will have to write up to Micro Tokyo now that I have something to write about! Me & Gary have been talking about Japanese Interior Design, I think he has the potential to be my Best Friend because we have a helluva lot in common and we just get on so well!
Simon
11/06/2004 - Friday
Weather: Cloudy/Sunny
It’s been a bit of an annoying day, I woke up today with the vain hope that maybe my PIN to my card had arrived... but of course, it had not. So I have yet to be reunited with my finances! Another thing was that me and my mum were debating in Tesco’s which caused a few looks and that was quite embarassing so I don’t know why I’m writing it up onto here! I am also nearly at the end of Skies of Arcadia and there have been quite a dew nasty developments and twists, but I am nearly at the end of it all. After that, I shall be playing Final Fantasy VIII whicah Gary has kindly lent to me.
Simon
12/06/2004 - Saturday
Weather: Sunny/Cloudy
Still no access to my money... how much longer will I be waiting? I finished Skies of Arcadia today, and it had a nice ending, and thanks to Gary, I don’t feel as if I have lost out on a gaming adventure because he has let me borrow FFVIII so I will play that tomorrow onwards :) It’s been a bit of a boring day otherwise, but at least it han’t had bad events. I have also been on a little Nostalgia trip TV wise, I watched Moesha & real Monsters which I used to watch when I was younger on Nickelodeon. I can’t believe it’s been 9 years since I last watched those TV programmes. I also watched the Big Brother Contestants fail their weekly task. So that’s it for today.
Simon
13/06/2004 - Sunday
Weather: Sunny
My skin is very itchy! Woke up today and was very bored as usual. Things didn’t really pick up until I started yacking away to Gary online. We watched the trailer to CASSHERN and we were listenning to Japan A Radio so an evening of Japanese goodness, just the way I like it!
Simon
13/06/2004 - Sunday
Weather: Sunny
My skin is very itchy! Woke up today and was very bored as usual. Things didn’t really pick up until I started yacking away to Gary online. We watched the trailer to CASSHERN and we were listenning to Japan A Radio so an evening of Japanese goodness, just the way I like it!
Simon
14/06/2004 - Monday
Weather: Sunny
My skin is still itchy... it’s this heat! out of the blue, I had Adam (who used to be listed in my friends section briefly) ask me if I was still with Paul and I just didn’t wanna hear that question or talk about it, but he kinda forced me into it and I’m just glad I have Gary to talk to, much prefer talking to him, or Ned!... There are some really screwed up people out there... wish they would all fall off a Cliff! I really do!!
Simon
15/06/2004 - Tuesday
Weather: Sunny
I woke up quite early not feeling very well, still feel a bit odd now. I did try going back to sleep but it was 9:00AM and I have to see my bank because my bills can’t wait for my PIN much longer! I also have been downloading some new songs that I heard on Japan-A-Radio (found in the Links page) and just not knowing what to do with myself.
Well, my mum got a call soon after writing the above. It lloks as if my mum & myself will be moving into sheltered acommadation for 6+ weeks whilst this place is renovated. She’s been waiting 5 years and it seems her wait is finally over.
Simon
16/06/2004 - Wednesday
Weather: Sunny
Had a bit of problems with bills but got that under control in the end thanks to my Credit Card. Just been doing some housework and bills today. Tomorrow there will be a meeting regarding where we will be going for temporary accommadation regarding the renovation works going on next month. Looks as if it’s gonna be really boring, and that this website may disappear for a while because I may have to cancel my BB subscription and get a new one, but this sit will return with a super update I’m sure!
Simon
17/06/2004 - Thursday
Weather: Cloudy
I got my PIN! I have money!! Also there was meeting regarding work on the place, it’s looking more like a relaity than ever before, and it looks as if it will finally be going ahead at the end of July or at some point in August. It does look as if it’s gonna be though for me though as I’m gonna be stuck in an area predominantly occupied by older people. I still don’t know what I’m gonna need, and whether or not there will be a phone line, either way, it’s gonna be inconvenient, and it may cause some problems, but I am willing to tollerate it as it is after all, Temporary!
Simon
18/06/2004 - Friday
Weather: Cloudy/Sunny
Well, today was more eventful for my mum than it was for me. She has been to the doctors and it looks as if she will now need to take Insulin to control her diabeties after all. Otherwise, all I can say is that the News makes the world look like it will forever be a hopeless place, A nurse has murdered, and only got 5 years in prison & an american hostage has been beheaded so it would seem by terrorists. It just makes me angry that people could hurt others so much. And they say I’m selfish!? I don’t know if I can ever let that damning insult go... It’s not that I hold grudges, it’s just that I don’t think that changes actually change anything. My reputation is based on my past and it seems whatever I do to prove it’s Faulty fails to make an Impact. What am I gonna do?
Simon
19/06/2004 - Saturday
WeatherCloudy/Sunny
I woke up being iritably bored out of my skull, then someone I slept with a fair while back came online telling me that he loved me and wanted to do it all again. Yeah, ok, we have some things in common but not passionately, just because he wants to go to Japan doesen’t mean we are are gonna get on like a house on Fire, after all, me and Gary get on much better, and have the same kinda passion for Japan. And I find it kinda disturbing now that I have found a few really good friends, who I much prefer chatting to. I don’t have any negative feelings towards them whatsoever, and that’s because they don’t want me for sex, they want me for me as a person.
Simon
21/06/2004 - Monday
Weather: Cloudy
Sorry about the lack of yesterday entry, I had to reformat my HD and have just now got my website back on here. I often dislike living here because I get spells of ridicule, and I’m living at work. People come here to work in this house, and even I’m being paid to do stuff. When I register for something and they ask for my home & work address, should I put my home address as my work address? Should I start buying bussiness suits & office supplies?... I need a holiday!
And thanks to Gary, a holiday I will get! Ok so it may be a couple of years til it happens but still, he’s answered my prayers! And I know I talk about him a lot, but that’s cos he’s worth it! And with a ctachphrase like that, I could do a L’ Oreal Advert!
Simon
22/06/2004 - Tuesday
Weather: Cloudy/Rain
From the top? Ok, today has been rather exciting! First I bought myself a new Hard Drive & Webcam, then I found Bonnie Pink’s Album, “Even so” for £15.00 online. then my mum got a call regarding another meeting that will be taking place on the 6th of July. It’s about the construction work that will be taking place next month and where we will be moving to. Thing is, the work takes place on the very next day, and that is when I shall be on my merry way to Kingswood. And they say I’m gonna hate it! Also been buying some new clothes ahem...
Simon
23/06/2004 - Wednesday
Weather: Raining
Looks as if I’m moving on the 12th of July now. I also have a 2nd Hard Drive and a webcam so now you guys can see me live!* Well, I’ve just been doing the regular wednesday stuff, houswework and shopping. The weather has been nasty. It’s raining and the pressure is unusually low... very low! Ya know, my latets upgrade has been the smoothest yet so I must be getting better as a future IT technician :)
*If ya speak to me on MSN that is, as for putting up a live webcam thing on my site, it’s a possibility.
Simon
24/06/2003 - Thursday
Weather: Cloud/Rain/Sun
I went to see the doctor this afternoon, and I have an ear infection & a chest infection, but my spirits are alright. I’ve been prescribed antibiotics and am following the advice of my GP who said I should take one immediately to start getting it into my system so I’ll be alright. Not a lot happened today, was kinda hoping I would get my new jeans today but no Joy. The football is on and Englad appears to be winning, but I ain’t watching it, I’m watching “as time goes by” on BBC2 *cackles at the patriots*.
Simon
26/06/2004 - Saturday
Weather: Raining
I thought I wrote an entry for yesterday.... oh well, my stoopid compooter lost it! I’M CONVERTING TO LINUX IF THIS CARRIES ON!!! Well, I received Lost in Translation on DVD today! Shall watch later on. Well, I’ve been wondering what is it going to take to make me happy? Is Project Ronin going to lead me to some degree of happiness? I guess I would be if I had more friends like Gary but we’re a rare breed. not many people out there who find Japanese youthy poppy culture more appealing than english misserable drivvel... that;s why it always rains! At least in Japan the weather is varied! Not long ago, my latest ex started talking to me again, saying that it was all his fault and I shouldn’t blame myself. But he hurt me then and can’t take it back now. I was taught that when I was little and at school and it certainly still applies, however, I will give him a 2nd chance as a friend, but.... I don’t wanna go to the cinema with him and his new boyfriend because that is just dodgy and I am willing to perhaps meet him for a coffee somewhere sometime.
Simon
27/06/2004 - Sunday
Weather: Sunny/Cloudy/Rain
I have a new suitcase! I started a support thread because of the sudden events of yesterday has caused me to go into a state of confusion... I can’t but wonder if my ex is upto something... anyway, my mum goes away tomorrow and I am gonna suspend any social activity and automatically turn do any social things from my ex for a while to suss him out... He claims he has changed, but he’s still rushing our friendship by throwing it into the deep end, things are still tender, and Gary (being the fiercely loyal friend he is) seems to agree with me when I say that I should meet my ex alone in a coffeeshop so we can suss one another out. I’m not really looking forward to moving out either. I mean, it’s not gonna be nice is it?
Simon
28/06/2004 - Monday
Weather: Sunny
I’m home alone for the next week hehehe! I’ve not done a lot today. Just been seeing my mum off and finding that most of the kitchen is packed up. And I’ve tidied up my room. Starting to feel better too which is just as well because I’m nearing the end of my antibiotic course. Almost July already... And by the time I get back, September will be around the corner! Ok I’m stuggling to write an entry for today so I’m gonna stop now. Sayoonara!
Simon
29/06/2004 - Tuesday
Weather: Sunny
Last night was awful. I just don’t seem to have any control of this new friend of mine. Yeah, I would want to be friends with him, but I need time. I can’t do it just yet. Which brings me to my everlasting internal conflict of my subconcious. Ever since he said I was selfish & useless, my self esteem has been plummeting, and I keep telling myself how repulsive and worthless I am, and then another part of me tells me that it’s not true and it goess on and on and I think I need help. He says that his new b/f is interested in me... maybe I should stop caring?
Simon
30/06/2004 - Wednesday
Weather: Sunny/Cloudy
Not a lot to say about today but I certainly had a laugh with Gary last night. I was telling Gary about my drunken antics with partner in Crime, Gemma. I was telling him about our drunken, vibrating Karaoke’s where I wear he high heels and she sings into her vibrator that she carries around in her handbag 24/7... that is until she left it behind in my room... Nuff said about that!
And that was June. It was a month where I had no access to my money, been feeling off colour, had figures from my past haunting me and received news that the long awaited £20,000+ construction work is finally going to be taking place in July. And July starts tomorrow. As useless as it is, I hope it’s calmer...
Simon