AUGUST 2004

12/08/2004 - Thursday

Weather: Thundery Showers

I’m home! And now I’m back for a while. I have a lot of updating to do, and there will be an article on the blog reflecting everything I’ve done here. I got home to a huge, unreal mess left behind by the builders. And I’ve spent all day clearin that up really. The place looks great, Funky bathroom, nice kitchen and cool Intercom system so far! New carpet to come too.

Simon

13/08/2004 - Friday

Weather: Cloudy

There is nothing that feels normal. Not even the things I used to enjoy, I want all the joy I had back, because I know the things I have been into are just great! I think I’ve hit a snag in the next Fire Target... How am I ever going to afford a Car? I can learn to drive but buying a Car isn’t going to be easy. I also feel as if I have lost my friends... I want to have them back... I miss them...

Simon

14/08/2004 - Saturday

Weather: Sunny

Ditto. I feel really thrown... I miss the way things were...

Simon

15/08/2004 - Sunday

Weather: Cloudy

Why can’t I just relax and settle in? I don’t like the fact that all the bad things I left behind are back, and I look forward to the day I leave them behind for good. I think it’s going to be sometime before I acheive the happiness that I look for... This Doom Blanket that surrounds everybody’s lives has it’s grip on me too... so I guess I’m normal huh? Anyway, I wouldn’t say I feel depressed... Just feel like I want to comfort eat... Everything feels so strange.

Excerpt from August 2003: “I have also set 2 goals for myself to be achieved by summer 2004 - Lose weight and get toned up and learn to drive. So I'm beginning to make my moves to steer things in the right direction at last...� - Oooopsie.... Yeah I’ve lost weight... toned up but lost my muscle tone... and am rapidly approaching the halfway mark to my driving lessons... but maybe next year...

Simon

17/08/2004 - Tuesday

I guess I forgot to do an entry yesterday. Well last night I got myself locked out simply cos I shut the door and had no key to get in, now we have an intercome, when the door to the back garden shuts, it’s locked on the outside. I had to use the mop outside, put through the catflap, hook onto the handle on the umbreella, extend the umbrella, and lassle the hook on the handle inside. I got myself back in in the end! I’m also doing a bit of redecorating once again. I’m painting me ceiling White, and the walls the CORRECT shade of yellow. I just can’t get comfortable with it incomplete...

Simon

18/08/2004 - Wednesday

Weather: Rain, Cloud & Sun

My labours are complete, I’ve kinda remodelled my bedroom and quite enjoyed it. But that’s only because I got to listen to Jpop all day long. I think I enjoy my own company more than I do other people’s because I’m not afraid to just be me when I’m on my own. Decorating and listenning to Jpop music all day long has become a kind of hobby for me. I enjoyed it, and I may be able to do it all again when my mum decides to buy the paint for my next decorating project. I also seem to be in a more productive mood when I’m doing the things I enjoy. As for settling in... When will these changes end? Why should I settle in?

Simon

19/08/2004 - Thursday

Weather: Sunny

This is a rare sight, I’m wearing a hat! Well today I treat myself because I’ve had a bit of a tough time lately, and I survived it. It was quite draining to be honest with you. I’m going to go see the Stepford Wives and will tell ya what it was like. Must tell the whole world! And I’m wearing the boots my lovely friend Tomo gave me for the record loves. And it’s been a relatively nice day. I enjoyed myself. Wish I had more friends like Gary, and that I could speak with Tomo & Gemma more regularly. At least Ned keeps in frequent contact :)

Simon

20/08/2004 - Friday

Weather: Sunny/Rain

Oh that Gary! Ya got to watch him! *giggles* Nah, he’s alright really. Well today I have been painting and eating noodle and listening to more Jpop, thinking about colour schemes for our now modified house. Well, I really do like Japan quite a lot and want to one day maybe spend a whole year there, working in a music shop so that I can listen to Jpop all day long and live as a Japanese person. That would be so nice. That’s kind of like my dream, but first I want to go on a Holiday there one day, maybe in a couple of years time when I can afford to have a great time in Japan, that is another dream of mine.

Simon

22/08/2004 - Sunday

Weather: Sunny

As for yesterday not a lot happened. Just started to think about building a 2nd website about something other than myself, but I’ve no Idea what I am going to base it on. However I will admit to thinking about extracting Micro Tokyo and giving it a website of it’s own. I’ve also devised a new daily routine for myself which includes eating breakfast, having Yaki Soba noodles for lunch and a not at all sensible dinner, as well as ab exercises, Japanese tid bits and learning to draw Anime until I can learn to drive. I’ll give it a try and see how it goes...

Simon

23/08/2004 - Monday

Weather: HEAVY Rain, Sunshine, Thunder Storms

My mum came back from respite today, not done a lot else. I’m just bored. Still have no Idea on what to base my new website on, don’t even know what name I’m gonna give it! Japanese popular culture is a huge passion of mine and one that may never die out, so I want to base it on that, but I don’t want it to have anything to do with my personal life.

Simon

24/08/2004 - Tuesday

Weather: Sunshine n Showers

Well I woke up today (like you do) to the sound of builders with a kid. They just made minor adjustments, I also bough more paint because tomorrow I am painting my mum’s bedroom. It’s gonna be lilac and white, in the what the lady wants the lady gets fashion. Also got a lot of appreciation which was unusual.

Simon

26/08/2004 - Thursday

Weather: Partially Sunny

I have finished painting my mum’s room now, looks very feminine. I’ve been thinking about the past again, and all the positive steps I tried to take but turned into mistakes. Maybe I should have used the therapy more but I just don’t like the NHS anymore and will do my best to avoid it as most I can until I have private medical insurance. I have also been thinking about buying a new bed cos the bed I have is very uncomortable, but I can’t really afford one.

Simon

27/08/2004 - Friday

Weather: Cloudy/Sunny

Well these past few weeks have been quite eventful. I have moved house and back again, I’ve had some nice experiences and some bad ones, but I’m sure I will make it through as yet another Summer (that never was) draws to a close. As for Autumn, it looks as if I will finally be meeting Gary, which I am quite looking forward too because he’s lovely really! Umm... I’ve not being doing that much today. Tomorrow my mum’s friend is coming round...

Simon

28/08/2004 - Saturday

Weather: Cloudy/Sunny

Geez my mum has one demanding friend! She’s a nice person (she even tidied up the Futon which was ver nice & unnecesary of her) but I must have pushed her about four and a half miles today in her wheelchair! She is disabled also, only for different reasons, she has had an operation on her Spine, but as the surgeons touched her Spinal Cord, she can no longer walk. Hence the disability. I also got Gary’s little present with a copy for myself, and I think it’s a rather good gift! I thought about what to get him as I wanted it to represent something about our friendship. But I aint saying what it is until he unwraps it! Anyway, I better add some new things to the site. Mata Ne!

Simon

29/08/2004 - Sunday

Weather: Cloudy/Rain/Sunny Periods

So what have I been upto today? I can’t really remember. My mum has been throwing up and I have just been exhausted really. I’m kinda bored here, and can’t stand playing games right now as that’s all I ever did over at Kingswood, so all I do is watch Sky or use this damn Internet thing that everyone is on about. Talking about Sky, I’m gonna get rid of it cos it’s stereotypical, cliched nonsense. I don’t like anything that broadcasts on it & I am paying for it! So it’s goodbye Sky next month.

Simon

30/08/2004 - Bank Holiday Monday

Weather: Cloudy/Sunny

My mum has been ill throughout most of today. She has been vomiting and seems unab;e to keep down food. I think a doctor may have to come see here perhaps. If it keeps on, I’ll call NHS Direct. But I’ve been ok, found some DIY to be quite stressful and watched bits of Breakfast at Tiffany’s, Rugrats in Paris & The Wedding Singer on TV today. I have also been doing a lot of work on this website too. I’m looking forward to seeing Gary soon, I will admit to that as I have something for him!

Simon

31/08/2004 - Tuesday

Weather: Sunny

My mum has been admitted into Hospital because she has a water infection and is at risk of going Hyper Glycaemic (think I spelt it right). So I’ve suddenly found myself home alone yet again. Anyway, I’m ok, not worried about my mum BUT I don’t mean that in a sadistic way, just not worried because I know she should be ok. I’ve seen her go into Hospital in worse states than that and it’s only a precauitionary measure so it’s nothing to worry about really, just looks worse than it is. August has been a busy month and September is getting off to a great start! My mum’s in Hospital and I’m stuck here alone! Still, I hope to be seeing Gary at some point nest month, AND THE LIL BRATS GO BACK TO SCHOOL!

Simon